Why my blogging’s on Pause
Reason #1 why I let myself loose in WordPress seven weeks ago was:
I was planning to make a website for my new & small enterprise, using WordPress.
And I tried that. But I found it hard to put my ideas across to WordPress and turning the whole thing into an acceptable website with a .com address.
So what did I do? I blogged about personal matters! Helluva way to procrastinate and have fun while feelin’ guilty.😉
Change of mind
After an unproductive time of trial and error I came to the conclusion that I wanted a .nl website instead. I prepared myself for learning WebMatrix, the Microsoft free web development application. To my horror I could only install it in Spanish (got Windows Spanish). After lengthy to and fro communication with various forums it appeared that I was unable to get an English version. That pissed me off no end.
When something is daunting
So there I was, put off by the daunting prospect of having to relearn html, get acquainted with today’s standards, and learning WebMatrix in Spanish. I spent a while in cerebral deadlock while blogging away happily.
Saved by the acquaintance!
You can imagine my elation when an acquaintance offered to make my website, for free! I would reciprocate somehow, one day, I would insist, because there is no such thing as a free website. We talked at length about the vision I had for the site. I then drew an exact copy of what I wanted in MS Word, software I know quite well in a low-level DTP sense. For the first time I could see exactly how I wanted it. He urged me to reserve the .nl domain and I decided to park the .com at the same time for a redirect. He suggested a certain template and mentioned a program he was going to set it up with. A program I did not know of. I felt a little uncomfortable for two reasons:
- Was there any online support for this program?
- Would I be dependent on him for changes and updates? (Absolutely out of the question!)
Nevertheless I looked into the template he had suggested and I sent him a Messenger IM with two questions, a form of communication he had insisted on. Two days later I got a reply. That evening one of my cats dragged in a big rat which quite frankly I had already begun to smell!😉
Take the bull by the horns
I am as much fiercely independent as I am helpless. These frames of mind alternate. My contact had alluded to my inability to learn html and working with frames. Hhmm, I think that that, together with the fact that he would take weeks to finish my site (his words), made my fierce independence kick in.
I started looking for templates and found a really good one. No frames, but it would do in terms of layout. I reluctantly downloaded WebMatrix once more (the fiftieth time, probably) having decided that I would just have to weather the Spanish storm. Follow tutorials in English and find the corresponding functions in Spanish. Time-consuming, but not insurmountable.
Commitment is not a four-letter word
Then a whole string of things happened which caused me to now have a completed home page with the linked pages not far off from completion.
- WebMatrix installed in English (don’t ask me why).
- I was able to concentrate on the job for ten hours a day, several days in a row;
- I bit into difficult issues like a bulldog, not letting go until I found a solution (it’s not easy deciphering someone else’s template in css if you’ve never seen a stylesheet in your life and div and span still seem like hieroglyphics).
- I figured out a way to copy a layer of an image and paste it onto an existing background. I’d never done that before; for some reason a Layer window appeared in my photo editing software while I was fiddling with this issue, making me experiment with it. A silly little thing, eh, to get so excited about? Yeah, that’s what you think.
- It lifted my self-esteem to levels where the entire site, including linked pages, seven or so, took more and more shape in my mind. I even felt a little euphoric.
Boldness has genius, power and magic in it
I really needed to feel bold to tackle the building of my business website. Instead, for weeks in a row I had felt like a wimp, resulting in an aborted website-building mission causing me to want to abdicate my responsibility. What did help me in the end was needing to show an exact replica of how I envisaged my website.
All of a sudden the somewhat vague & complicated issue became crystal clear. I think it also peeved me that he thought I could not learn html (I used it ten years ago to build a simple website), plus I was alarmed by the time it would take him to finish my site as well as the difficulty to communicate with him.
Summing it up
- Clarity (visual of my website);
- Defiance (what, you think I can’t learn that??!!), and
- Independence (you will take how long?!)
spurted me into my very own action!
In his beautiful quote of Goethe, the mountaineer W.H. Murray pointed out to me some 25 years ago that you have to be committed for the ball to really start rolling. My commitment to make the website finally took concrete form after I designed an image of how I wanted it. The other two ‘helpers’ were merely emotional motivators.
“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back…”
“All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred.”
To have a clear picture of your objective – ideally on paper – is therefore also a great way to stop procrastinating! When I created the image of the website for my acquaintance I never wondered how this was going to be made (because it wouldn’t be me).
Typical psycho-cybernetics: don’t worry about the ways and means to achieve it, just focus on the goal and believe in its feasibility. I always loved that stuff.